To be or not to be, it is not the question (神阿,請賜給我一點神奇力量)

It has been a month since I came back to the job market. Lots of things are different from the past working environment, such as the management style, workload, coworkers, work flow, how marketing communications position can play a role in this IT company, etc. The only thing not changed, after one month exploring, is that I keep the same ambition of getting the achievement and trying to learn. Looking into the headline I have here, well you know, the only thing I haven't changed does not sound a positive thing to me at this moment.

The short version of the story is I have some office politics around me. It is very annoying and myself don't have the wisdom and power to change that. Luckily my bosses aknowledge that gap and try to solve for me. It is in the process, but no one knows when the issue will be solved.

This issue really hit me hard. Due to this I have to wait until its solved. Before that, my agressiveness of learning and achiving is totally blocked. Although I come back home at a very normal hour and no ovetime a lot, I comoplain to my husbands a lot. I complain to him why this is happened, I shall ask the details in advance before taking this job blah blah blah...

One day, he suddenly ask me back ( maybe he cannot stand my compliants any more,) he said, why don't you simply take it just "A work."

I should just take the work one stand-alone component in my daily life, though it does provide some economic satisifaction, but I should learn how to seperate the work from my life instead of attach it to my emotion.

My response to my dearest husband is, well, honey, I have been lived like this since collage; I attended tons of school activities without going home for 2 months (my home and my school only takes 1 hr train.. ), I have been like this since came to Texas for study, and tried to get an internship in a very tough and competitive environment, and most importantly, I have been behaving like this since pass position and because of that experience I got this new job!
All of the past attributes demonstrate that I am that kind of person who always looks for something. I am the look-for person, not the waiting person who waits for the environment's respose and acceptance. So, honey, if you are asking me just take this new offer " A work," well what can I look for other than earning a living?

Thus, my new task these days has been "what's the new definition of A Work." Without that answer clear, I am stuck here and keep wondernig...