Sleepless in Seattle (西雅圖睡不著)

First of all, I am not living in Seattle, not the city, but "Seattle" is where the street I am living. Recently I have been sleepless all night long. It is very annoying and tired. I have to drink some beers, or watch my 柯南 or Sex and the city DVDs for getting some sense of sleeping 助睡.

The funny thing is, I did not have this symptom before, not at all! I had slept well and deep in the past years, no matter how worried I was on the projects, exams, how unhappy I was for the incoming weeks and task... Well, I pretty much did a good job on the sleep. Even if there were the days that I cannot quickly 好命的迅速入眠, what I did was to write some todo items on the post-it, to calm myself down. Organize my mixed crazy thoughts. Once I finish the writing, somehow I got the feel my worry and stress is in a relief. Isn’t that amazing? Just write something and that can make me to the bed!

In the past couple weeks, this trick started not working any more. I have some indescribable stress and worry in my mind and they block me to get into the night- night dream. Since it is indescribable, I cannot write it, cannot use my old fashion way. 最後,在多番翻來覆去後,and after watching couple of TVs , DVDs, I finally feel tried and have some bad quality sleep.

So, I started to wonder, why I become so sleepless in Seattle, especially when most of the past sleep roadblocks are moved away?

Pattern. I lost my pattern of living a life.

I am so used to set a goal and strive for it. Enjoy the achievements and get-over feel.
Well, as you can see, a housewife w/o babies(在中文裡,有時我們稱是少奶奶+熟女+好命人) should be the most amazing JOB that lot of girls want to stay with. But for me, this is not my style, not in my pattern.

I did not think of this, or recognize this after all these busy years. 就像是巴洛克時期的設計很古典,很retro, but for the one who likes現代風,不對乘的幾何形設計, it is just not fitting.

Thus, I register a certification exam, and set my study schedule every day. I am hoping this bus-ier schedule, an earning something kind of new life, an updated housewife’s life, can bring me back to the sleepwell land.


PS. The movie Sleepless in Seattle is one of my favors. Pasting this movie image makes me miss the days that Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan are the best couple on the screen.
People said this movie is "something wonderful about life."

Have a good sleep, ya\\\’ll~